AnnaLynne McCord on being raped at age 18: 'For 10 years, I thought it was my fault'

AnnaLynne McCord is getting candid on what it's like to be a victim of sexual abuse.

During an interview with the BBC on International Women's Day, "The Night Shift" star opened up about the traumatic time when she was raped by a friend at the age of 18.

According to McCord, who was born in Atlanta, Georgia, the incident happened at the place she was living at while trying to pursue her acting career in Los Angeles.

"I was never raped in these scenarios that they tell you you're going to get raped in," McCord, now 29, explained. "I was in my own home. Let a friend come stay at my place, because he needed to crash, and I woke up and my Southern hospitality, if you want to call it that, was being greatly taken advantage of. I woke up, he was inside me, and my whole body shut down."

For nearly a decade, she blamed herself for the incident.

"For 10 years, I thought it was my fault. I didn't fight back," she said. "I found out recently due to my weird little studies of neuroscience that my body actually completely shut everything down and wouldn't let me fight back because I thought that was the only way to cope with abuse."

"I wasn't the one seeking any kind of solace or consolation from what happened -- I pretended like it didn't occur and went on with my life," she continued. "I thought I was fine and continued 'living,' if you want to call that living."

But "living" meant becoming "very, very dark."

"Suicidal," she admitted. "Self-harming -- cutting up my arms."

Now, McCord is sharing her story again in hopes of helping other victims of sexual abuse. Since first admitting she was raped while chatting with Cosmopolitan back in 2014, she's spent her time involving herself with charity work, specifically organizations that deal with survivors of the Cambodian sex trade.

"I fight human trafficking, working with survivors of consistent rape every day, all day," she told BBC. "We're working to get them back to some sort of normalcy."

Concluding the interview, McCord shared a powerful message to those who have faced a similar situation.

"You have a voice," she exclaimed. "Don't put yourself in a box. Don't let the polite lies of society silence you."

AnnaLynne McCord has opened up about being raped at age 18. (Reuters)


AnnaLynne McCord Admits She Self-Harmed and Was ‘Suicidal’ After Being Raped By a Friend in Her Own Home

It took 10 years for AnnaLynne McCord to stop blaming herself for the rape she experienced as a teenager.

The 29-year-old 90210 actress gave a harrowing interview to the BBC on Wednesday in honor of International Women’s Day, where she spoke again about her assault and what she’s learned now that could help other survivors.

Recounting the incident, McCord noted how her rape happened in a different way than those often described by society.

“I was never raped in these scenarios they tell you you’re going to get raped in,” she said. “I was in my own home. Let a friend come stay at my place because [he] needed to crash. And I woke up to find my Southern hospitality, if you want to call it that, was being greatly taken advantage of. I woke up, and he was inside me — and my whole body shut down.”

At the time, McCord was just 18-years-old and living in Los Angeles where she was pursuing a career as an actress. Though she had grown up the pastor’s daughter in a devoutly Christian household, she had also experienced strict discipline from her parents as a child.

Leaving home at 15, she admits to going “a little crazy-wild in New York, dancing on tables wearing little miniskirts.”

Those things combined made her feel responsible for her own rape — though she admits now “how I dress does not mean yes.”

“For 10 years I thought it was my fault,” she said. “I didn’t fight back. I found out recently through my studies of neuroscience that my body completely shut everything down and wouldn’t let me fight back because I thought that was the only way to cope with abuse.”

After the incident happened, McCord said she completely shut down.

“I wasn’t the one seeking any kind of solace or consolation from what happened — I pretended like it didn’t occur and went on with my life,” she explained. “I thought I was fine and continued ‘living,’ if you want to call that living.”

“I became very, very dark,” she added. “Suicidal. Self-harming – cutting up my arms.”

But she also found herself drawn to charity work, especially with survivors of the Cambodian sex trade.

“I fight human trafficking, working with survivors of consistent rape every day — all day,” she said. “We’re working to get them back to some sort of normalcy.”

When she was asked by writers on 90210 if she was comfortable playing a storyline in which her character Naomi was raped by a teacher, McCord jumped at the chance thinking of her charity work — but not realizing her own connection to the material.

“The producers came down and asked, ‘Would you want to portray this — it’s very dark.’ It was the story of my character being raped. And I was like, ‘Yes, this is such an important topic,’ ” she said. “It was something I was really excited to tackle.”

“I did months and months of episodes,” McCord continued. “I was in to a second season of the storyline when I had a moment on set and what happened to me all came back in a flash.”

Since then, she hasn’t looked back — first revealing her story in a May 2014 Cosmopolitan piece and since taking her message to college campuses with her short film, I Choose.

“The support has been amazing,” she previously told PEOPLE. “You think in your head that the opposite is going to happen. You think that you’ll be shamed and there will be even more degradation, humiliation. And the opposite has been apparent. But what’s even more important than that to me has been the outreach from survivors who are telling me their stories.”

She said thousands victims have reach outed to her about their own experiences — emails that she personally takes the time to answer.


“Eighty percent of them have told me for the very first time – a complete stranger, someone they don’t even know, a random actress in Los Angeles – because I said, ‘Hey, I was raped too and it’s okay,’ ” McCord shared. “And the ‘it’s okay’ part is the most crucial part.”

“It’s okay” is something McCord had to tell herself a lot in the wake of her revelation. But after years of dealing with self-worth and self-esteem issues, she said she’s finally at a place where she is happy with herself — and hopes others who were victims of sexual assault also get on the long road to recovery.

“I’m thankful to report that I love myself now, I think she’s wonderful. But it’s taken me a long time,” McCord said. “I’m just very thankful that [organizations like] The Rape Foundation create an opportunity for survivors like myself to experience love – experience what I didn’t have in silence for nine years before finally coming out about it.”

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